I’m baaaaack!

Well, it’s been a rough few weeks.  First, Dorothy passed away. Then we had to put our dog, Flash, down.  Everywhere we look in the house, everything we do, reminds us of how much we’ve lost.  On the other hand, it’s nice to be reminded of the love we had for them, and how lucky we are to have known them.  Bitter sweet.

Traveling to Vegas, and all the stress and grief have not unsettled my resolve though.  I’ve stuck to the plan pretty well, and have lost 36 pounds.  I have found a bunch of blogs that are amazing, and I’ve learned a lot!  I’ve learned a new way of cooking, which is still in progress (probably always will be!) and a new way to view food.  I’m feeling a bit stronger, a bit healthier, though I’m still in pain a lot.  I’m certainly happier!  Best of all, I think my family is closer.  I’ve been so proud of how everyone has done what they could to help each other through the hard times, showing love and support.  I was just reading a post on the VegWeb forum where someone was saying how great the early “crush” stage of a relationship is. I couldn’t disagree more.  The confusion, the misunderstandings, the fear, the awkwardness; not fun in my book.  Now, after ten years of marriage; this is the best.  Knowing that my husband is there, no matter what, trusting in his love for me, his honesty, that’s amazing.  And on the other side, knowing how best to comfort him in grief, understanding what he needs to feel loved and supported, the amazing tenderness when he takes my hand to hold when we’re just hanging, watching TV; that is the most intense experience I could ever need or desire.  I’m over all the butterfly stomach giggles; that has a place (and yeah, after ten years, it still happens), but I feel the everyday, normal, ordinary love so much deeper and more satisfying than any schoolgirl crush could dream.

Man, I totally did NOT intend to write that tonight!  Sorry if you got diabetes reading it…  And now, I’d better shut up, cuz I can’t help but think of this song…

Back to food…. Tonight I cooked “Authentic Pad Thai” from VegWeb.  I was really rather disappointed.  This recipe was fairly tasteless.  It was edible, but nothing good, nothing to look forward to.   I had an old recipe for Pad Thai that I just loved; I’ll have to see if I can find it. I think it’s fairly easy to veganize.   After I finish this post, I’m going to try to make Mexican Hot Chocolate Snickerdoodles; I have much higher hopes for that recipe!

I’ll try to get back into writing almost every day, and I’m sending Peru to Vegan Yum Yum’s blog for food blog photography lessons… man what a great blog she has! I have a bunch more links to get up as well.  Learning so much!

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2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. asbestos
    Jul 11, 2010 @ 19:43:14

    Welcome back! So remind me, HOW wonderful is he? 😉

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  2. Amy Love
    Jul 11, 2010 @ 22:42:12

    yay! so happy to hear your back! sorry the pad thai turned out crappy, that always sucks… but keep trying new things, the possibilities are endless… also, i find that halving a new recipe is sometimes a good idea, in case it ends up being super sucky, good luck ❤ glad your feeling kinda better!

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