Better and Worse

Yesterday and today I was starting to think I was maybe coming out of this “flare” that I’ve been in the last few weeks. I’ve had more energy, though I’m still really tired and have a lot of pain, especially at the end of the day.  This is of course a two edged sword. I way over did it the last two days, so I had planned to take it easy today. Not being the sharpest pencil in the drawer, I woke up today and started; cooking, cleaning, organizing, laundri-fying, etc. It feels so good to do something, to feel useful.  It’s now five o’clock, and it’s catching up with me.

I think I still am coming out of the flare. I just really really need to work on that pacing myself thing. It’s so hard though; I put off so much when I’m in pain.  My room is a disaster; it currently approaches “Hoarder” status (though without the human feces, thank you.) Laundry was so backed up that poor Murph didn’t have socks for school this morning.  Luckily I found a pair that fell down in the cushion of my easy chair, where I put laundry to be folded sometimes.  My yarn and fiber stuff is E V E R Y W H E R E in my room because ages ago (BH = before hospitalization) I was trying to sort and organize my stash and I’ve never finished. I get very easily rattled when my environment is chaotic, even when it’s my personal chaos.

Several good things got accomplished this week though, and that makes my mental well being improve.  A good thing.  I just need to learn how to take baby steps sometimes. A hard lesson to learn for someone who has been “all or nothing” my whole life.  But I’m getting there.  By baby steps.

Daily Menu

B – Stuffed French Toast (Sourdough bread, vegan cream cheese and fruit, dipped in egg wash and griddled.  Awesome!)

L – Green drink.  Salt and vinegar potato chips, blueberries.

D – Yakisoba noodle bowl

S – So Delicious Chocolate Obsession Ice Cream

Daily Menus

Since I know I’ve had trouble eating properly lately, and I further know that for my body to function it needs good nutrition, I’m going to start posting my daily intake again.  I’m not sure if I’ll do it here or at Sparkpeople; here is easier, there is more informative.  I just downloaded the  Sparkpeople mobile app; that may help with the ease factor.  Anyway, if I do it here, I’ll just post at the end of each blog post; feel free to ignore.  Maybe it’ll help me blog more regularly. HAHAHAHA  Oh well, one can dream….