Catching up

Sunday, I had the chance to meet several of the people from my online fiber group, Sheep Thrills.  I can’t even begin to tell you how interesting this was for me, in many ways.  These people have been so supportive to me online, and I really enjoy reading their posts.  They’re very intelligent, diverse, eclectic and kind of intimidating to me, being not exactly a social butterfly.  I know I need to get out more, I need to make friends, become more balanced.  So I made up my mind to go.

I’m so glad I did.  I had a wonderful time.  Within moments of my arriving, Carol and Janet made me feel so at home and welcome; I set up my wheel, patted the kitty named Misty, and settled in to spin the day away.  Karen, Randall, Kathryn, Laura, Elena; everyone was so nice and had lovely fibery goodness to touch and feel and admire.  Carol showed off a basketful of shawls she’d made, and they just blew me away.  I wished I could have stayed longer, but the exhaustion and pain got to me, and I had to leave around four pm.

The problem with doing things then became quite evident.  By the time I got home, I was in agony and so tired I could barely move.  Some heavy duty medication helped.  Yesterday I did, well, mostly nothing.  Today, I slept til noon. Woke up exhausted. So exhausted, that this post, started on Tuesday, wasn’t finished til Friday.  I had so much more to write, but it’s all disappeared into the ether.  Maybe I’ll find it again someday…


An End In Sight?

Well, today was spent napping, mostly.  I slept late, woke up and read email, fell asleep in my chair, woke up for lunch and to pick Murphy up at school, came home and napped on the couch.  I feel like maybe I might feel human soon.  The pain has calmed down to a reasonable level, although the cold in my toes and fingers never seems to get warm.  Tonight, having accomplished NOTHING today, I don’t feel as exhausted, so maybe there’s hope for tomorrow.

Though that’s not really true, that I accomplished nothing.  I did manage to finish the first mitt of the pair I’m knitting.  As usual, I already want to make changes in the pattern but that would require knitting another, so I plan to finish this pair as written and then rewrite for the next pair.

So off I go, to start the second mitt.

On My Own

Well, the financial situation being what it is, I can’t go see my TCM practitioner anymore.  No more herbs, no more needles.  It’s so hard to know if it was helping or not, because my symptoms are so cyclic.  I’m going to keep the diet recommendations, at least for a while, to see if I notice any change with just the herbs gone. Then maybe I’ll try going back to my old diet (true vegan.)

Right now, I’m sort of back to baseline; knees hurt but mostly everything else is relatively pain free, itch died to an occasional flare, abdominal pain just barely starting its upswing, tired but not exhausted, brain fog minimal. This is the optimal time in my month; the one week that I feel fairly normal, functional.

I’ve been working on my plants;  discovered an infestation of caterpillars that ate all my arugula and watercress and is now attacking my kale.  At least now I know what’s happening.  So every morning now I’m out picking caterpillars off the undersides of my cauliflower and kale.  And combing the internet for organic solutions to pests.  I find it’s a case of too much information; every website has a different recipe.  I  may have to rely on good old fashioned hand removal.

My cukes have a ton of flowers; and the squash does as well.  I really hope to get some squash; it’s one of my favorite veggies.  The heat this week has been hard on all my plants; a lot of these fall veggies aren’t used to triple digit heat.  That is the advantage of having them in pots though; I can move them into the shade when I need to.  One of my tomato plants doesn’t look like it’s going to make it; the other seems ok.  I’m not sure what happened; it’s not the caterpillars; the leaves just wilted and died.  I can’t ever tell if it’s too much water or not enough.  It was right beside the other tomato plant, so they got the same; not sure why one is ok and the other isn’t.  If anyone out there has any advice, I’d love to hear it…

I washed some alpaca fleece, which surprisingly did not dry in the heat yesterday.  It feels soft and lovely though; I can’t wait to spin it.  I’m a little concerned about how I’m going to prepare it though.  I have combs, which I’ve never learned how to use, but I’m not sure they’re suitable for alpaca.  I got this fleece directly from the shepherdess, who treats the animals like her babies.  It’s so cool to know the name of the animal that gave the fleece.  She gave me three bags, one of which I am dying  to get my hands on, but I wanted to practice with the white first, since I’m a bit rusty.  Lucien has the most amazing fleece, fawn-reddish color, and the loft is just amazing.  Right now, he’s tucked away til I get my mojo back.

I’m still job hunting.  It’s very discouraging. Most of the time I don’t even get the consideration of a rejection, I’m simply ignored. I do have an interview tomorrow, so cross your fingers.

What’s wonderful is that after an initial meltdown over finances, I’m finding that trial is bringing us together as a family.  We’re focusing on what we can do, how we can help each other, appreciate each other,  and I have taken a few more steps learning to trust.  Personal growth, and all that jazz.  It’s still scary to be unemployed in this economy, but I love my family so much, and it’s so good to know how strong we can be.

Time to go check Craig’s List for jobs again; and plan dinner, which is going to be Greek Lemon potatoes, brussels sprouts, and tofu, I think.  Gonna get creative… uh oh!

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